As I’ve mentioned before, one of my favorite YouTube Channels is CNBC Make It. I like it because it showcases millennials (which I am not, by the way – Gen Xer here) with comfortable incomes ( or at least most of them have comfortable incomes) and how they make and spend their money. Since I’m writing this last minute – like I write mostly everything on here – I don’t have time to look this girl up. Just know she was the girl featured on that channel who made like 141K, I believe, and she said something like she used to be a drug addict. I’ll go back and update for accuracy, but I was like damn. How do you go from being on drugs to making $141, 000 a year?
Taking drugs is a bad habit that usually goes hand and hand with other bad habits, like not getting shit done, so I’m like how the fuck did she make that switch? I mean, I’ve never taken drugs – all though one could say I’m addict to junk food – and I have a hard enough time disciplining myself to pursue my purpose, so I’m just baffled at how she did it while on drugs. I mean I think that it’s great that she did it, her transformation is admirable. Whatever she did, I guess it’s not something that can be wrapped up in a 10-minute video.
That’s part of the reason I’m doing this blog. It’s because we always see successful people after they’ve become a success. We never meet them during the struggle. Consequently, even though we may hear about their humble beginnings, once we become aware of them, they are so far removed from that, that it’s still difficult to relate. I can relate to the dreams but I can’t relate to achieving them.
I can relate to rejection, and failing, and being discouraged and giving up. But I can also relate to trying again. I’ve yet to win, but I never fail to try again. It may take me months, it may take me years, but I always try again.
But when you have more L’s in your column than W’s the try comes with an additional ball and chain. I think in the last few years, I’m just beginning to understand what it means to be a doer and not just a dreamer. I’m beginning to see how dreams alone actually end up fueling your frustration. But this whole doing thing is so new I don’t even know where to begin. There is no road map, I’m making it up as I go, and, and, I don’t know…
It’s a challenge. It’s funny how I could get up and go to work, be on time and do a great job at a job I can’t stand, but when it comes to putting that same effort into pursuing my purpose, I repeatedly fall short.
But I guess that’s how it goes when something’s new. I guess I just need to cut myself some slack, or no, more like hold myself accountable, and just keep going.
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