Today’s post is giving me trouble. It came to me last week…last like Wednesday or Thursday to be not so exact, and I’m having the hardest time writing it.
It’s not coming easy to me. It took me forever just to get a word on the page, to try and solidify the concept. It’s a jumble of puzzle pieces that I have to put together, only to find that some of these pieces don’t belong. Some don’t fit. And not only that, but some are missing and I have to do research to find them.
Sigh.
I wanted to challenge myself and see if I could finish it by today. I don’t know if I can, but I didn’t. I don’t know if I would have gone a little harder and given you whatever my best would have ended up being had I finished by now, if it would have been any better or worse than what it will be when I post it…or if it will be the same.
But I hate this feeling that looms over me, this writing anxiety, where nothing that I want to be good is ever good enough.
Writing ain’t easy, but I’ma do this thing. I’ll have it for you before next Wednesday. I’m shooting for tomorrow. Hopefully me telling you that will get me going.
Know the feeling?
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