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Oprah has this saying she would often mention on her show: \u201cGod can dream a bigger dream for you than you dream for yourself.\u201d I never quite understood that because I would always be thinking, \u201cHave you seen my dreams?\u201d Like the only way God could dream a bigger dream for me than I dream for myself \u00a0is if\u00a0 His dream was for me to take His place (blasphemous I know), otherwise there\u2019s nothing good or desirable under the sun I haven\u2019t already dreamed for myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
The only thing is, my dreams have always been trapped off in someday, some sure yet unknown day off in my future. Problem is, the older I\u2019ve gotten those future days have turned into present days with my dreams from yesterdays still unrealized.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
I was trying to sound all lyrical and poetic for a moment there, but I can\u2019t keep it going so let me put this another way\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Basically what I\u2019m sayin\u2019 is, I never thought I had a problem with dreaming, my problem had to do more with doing. Because the path to realizing a big dream from nothing is not a clear one. Hell, not only is it not a clear one, often times it\u2019s not even there. You have to carve it out along the way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Then one day I was studying the Bible and it hit me. All of a sudden Oprah\u2019s saying made sense to me, and I realized I wasn\u2019t dreaming my biggest dream. By the way I totally forgot what I was studying, but I can look it up later.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But anyway, it was such a revelation to me when I got it. My problem is not dreaming big, my problem is having the faith in the smalls steps you must first take before you can get to the big dreams. My problem is even in having the medium-sized dreams that come before the big dreams. It\u2019s funny, I can see myself having the world, but it\u2019s hard for me to believe I\u2019ll ever be a paid writer, or be able to buy a house, or support myself. So those are the things that in essence are God\u2019s bigger dreams for me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m realizing now that it\u2019s all relative. Because for me, starting to believe that I have what it takes to take those initial small steps, is God dreaming a bigger dream for me than I could dream for myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Strangely enough, I now see how dreaming big dreams has been somewhat of a cop out for me. It\u2019s a way of not dealing with whatever I don\u2019t like in the reality of my today, because I could always look off into that someday in my head when things would be better \u2013 when I would have the things that I want, the career that I want, the life that I want. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
In my teens, I had great dreams about what I would be in my 20s, but I didn\u2019t make it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In my 20s, I had great dreams about what I would be in my 30s, but I didn\u2019t make it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Now I\u2019m 40, and I\u2019m like damn, I can\u2019t keep going like this. Someday has gotta be today.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So I\u2019ve got to renew my mind, change my thinking, and do something different. I can\u2019t just set goals, I have to create a plan to reach them. This includes, small, incremental, measurable goals that will allow me to cheer myself on.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So yeah, my biggest dream right now, is to get used to dreaming small. My biggest dream right now is to access what I have today and use it. My biggest dream right now is to finish and post this entry before midnight.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mission Accomplished\u2026On to the next!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Oprah has this saying she would often mention on her show: \u201cGod can dream a bigger dream for you than you dream for yourself.\u201d I never quite understood that because I would always be thinking, \u201cHave you seen my dreams?\u201d…<\/p>\n