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Orange Gerber daisies from grocery store ($6); small snake plant, including pot, on clearance from Wal-Mart ($5), African painting (see previous post) from vendor in Cape Town, South African ($30), vase (free) found in my garage leftover by my aunt when she used to stay with us.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s been hard for me to write lately ya\u2019ll. Not because I don\u2019t have anything to say. Not because I don\u2019t have a ton of ideas, but because I\u2019ve been afraid I don\u2019t have the finesse to communicate them in the proper way\u2026a lyrical way, a wordsmith-y way, an engaging way.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I guess it\u2019s the perfectionist in me: If I can\u2019t do what I want to do, I\u2019d rather do nothing at all.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

And so nothing is what you got.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Plus, I thought my last post was pretty darn good. Like, I don\u2019t know what you thought of it, but as for me? I felt that piece! Writing it pulled at my heartstrings like I was experiencing the moment all over again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When you do that once, you want to do it again \u2013 over and over and over again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But than again, that\u2019s the plight of a writer: The written word is only yours insofar as you\u2019ve written it. After that, it belongs to the reader, for them to do with it what they may.  Perhaps they\u2019ll like it, perhaps they won\u2019t. Perhaps they\u2019ll feel inspired, perhaps they\u2019ll be bored. Some will be engaged, yet others will ignore it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That\u2019s the way it goes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now to get to those flowers up there.  Did you think they were just decoration for this post? Well, now that I think about it, I guess they can be that too.  But when I bought them, it wasn\u2019t with the purpose of decorating this post. Matter of fact, at the time, I wasn\u2019t even aware of this post. I bought them because I so love the color orange. And when I saw them for only $6 in Albertson\u2019s circular, I knew I had to have them. They were perfect to go on top of my orange file cabinet. Too much orange you say? Not so.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

While they lasted, they were lovely to behold \u2013 a cheerful addition to my otherwise drab room. And I\u2019m not even really that into flowers, but vibrant orange ones are hard to pass up. However before long, they began to wilt, some faster than others. One by one, I tossed the bad ones out until only a few remained. Those, I subsequently neglected \u2013 totally forgot about. One, for the most part, kept its shape. But there was another\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n