And believe me I’m not trying to be, but here’s another day, another fired story delay. I don’t know what to say. It’s funny, because when I had that 9-5, I was very disciplined. I kept a really good schedule. I wrote some stuff down, put some stuff on my calendar, but most of it was in my head – and I got shit done. Often times hitting deadlines at the last minute, but hitting them nonetheless. But for some reason it’s so much harder to keep that same energy for myself.
There’s this verse in the Bible, Proverbs, that says, Look at that ant you sluggard. He has no overseer and yet he gathers his food in the summer and eats in the winter. Okay, I totally butchered that verse, but you get the point. If not, here it is: the ant is accountable to no one but itself. It doesn’t have a boss or an overseer. The ant just knows it has to get shit done, because if it doesn’t get shit done it won’t have anything. It is not motivated by being accountable to someone else, it’s motivated by self-preservation.
So yeah, that’s the lesson that I’m always trying to learn. And it seems for me, it’s situations like this that’s the best way to learn it: when I don’t have a job, and I don’t know what’s next and my life is in my hands…mines and God’s of course. But it’s like His are tied until I do something. So what am I going to do?
Well, I know what I want to do, and maybe part of what I need to do is go easy on myself, because there is a world of judgment out there and I can’t contribute to it. I’m just going to take it slow, take it easy, and have fun.
Speaking of fun, I’m headed out to a comedy club right now. Oh wait, by the time this will be posted, I’ll be done. But anyway, I’m going to have me a margarita and some laughs and I wish the same for you – the laughs…hell, the margarita too.
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