It’s not even a big iPhone. It’s an SE iPhone which makes it even harder. Look at me trying to feel good about myself for sticking to posting everyday. You be getting something at the last minute(it’s 11:05pm right now) but dammit, you gone get something. I remember back in the day when I think Drake said he wrote his songs on a Blacberry and I wonder how in the hell did he do that, but I guess it can be done. Look at me, I’m getting faster as I type.
But anyway, I don’t have much to say today. I mean I do but this is not the ideal way to say it. I need to have my thoughts well thought out, and I can’t do that here. But I can say is that I’m proud of myself today for getting up when I didn’t feel like it. I had a lot of stuff to do today, and I pretty much got to it all, but it all started with getting out of bed.
Isn’t it amazing how a nice hot shower can really wake you up, at least temporarily, because a couple hours later I was tired again, but I pushed through it and I’m happy I did.
I think today was just a reminder to not be so hard on myself. I try to be brutally honest with myself as to guard myself from delusions. Like even if I lie to you—which for the most part I don’t do, but everybody lies sometimes— I try not to lie to myself. But I think in an effort to be honest, sometimes I go to the negative extreme. I can focus on everything I did wrong and not acknowledge anything I did right.
now I’m working on that. Even if I do a million things wrong in a day, while I acknowledge that, im still going to congratulate myself on whatever I did right. And today that was getting up when I didn’t feel like it, making it through the day, and giving you another post 23 days in a row…and we’ll you know, if I count the small stuff I could go on., but I won’t.
so if you’re like me and sometimes you have a tendency to beat yourself up about everything, let this be your reminder that you don’t have to. While you don’t have to sugarcoat the things you did wrong, it’s okay to pat yourself on the back for the things you did right, even if it’s just getting up when you didn’t want to.
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