So I made it to the end of the first week in December, and well, it didn’t go exactly as planned. Last minute set backs sprang forward that I wasn’t expecting and had no response for. One day I picked up extra hours at work and consequently was too exhausted to even think. Once the exhaustion wore off and I got to thinking, I realized the post I was going to write was going to be longer than I thought, and I had nothing planned to compensate for it. Oh, I think that’s the day I gave you my favorite Christmas songs. Then I got a crick in my neck and didn’t write the Movie Scenes I Love post the way I really wanted to. I came through the following day, but honestly I don’t know what state that post is in. I wrote it really last minute, like this one, and didn’t break it down like I really wanted to. Then my Something in the News post got swallowed up in the mix, and now this post. This was supposed to be something random if I remember correctly, because I don’t feel like looking at the schedule. But I think I’m right, so at least I’m sticking to the script with this one.
Even though I fucked up this week, and what I produced doesn’t exactly resemble what I said it would, I’m just happy I got through it. I’m just happy I came back everyday to write something. I’m just happy I didn’t quit.
I’m making something. I’m building something. Right now, I’m just laying the foundation – trial and fucking error. It doesn’t have to be perfect, thankfully, because it wasn’t. And I’m not going to beat myself up about it like I usually would. At least it gives me a lens to look through. I’ve gone from rumination to practice. I’ve taken something out of my head and put it to paper, put it to the screen. Now I can determine how to move forward. But one thing’s for certain, I’m moving forward.
Here’s to next week. Here’s to writing.
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